Third time writing you a letter, getting darker
I'm getting worse and worse
I had a reason for the writing
But trying to exorcise my demons didn't work
To try to rid me of the worry and to purge
You out of wonder for the future and the hurt
I wrote a poem
I'm increasingly aware I've been painting things in gray
I'm increasingly alarmed by the pain
I'm increasingly alive to every cloud up in the sky
I'm increasingly afraid it's going to rain
See, lately I've hated me for over-playing pain
For always pointing fingers out at everyone
But who in fact is guilty and
For picking at my scabs like they could never break
But they can and they will
And I'll spill like a leak in the basement
A drunk in the night choir
Just slur all those words to make deadbeat that sweet old
refrain
Self-inflicting my pain
And therein lies the real shame
I heard when they were picking through the rubble finding
limbs
They sang hymns, but now what of what I sing?
The worry, the wonder, the shortness of days
The replacement for purpose
The things swept away
By the worry, the wonder, my slightness of frame
The replacements for feeling
The casual lay
And the worst of the wildlife wears clothes and can pray
And the worry, the wonder, for three meals a day
Only death unimpeded, not slowing it's pace
Brings that petty, old worry and wonder away
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